Same garbage different year.

 I have been experiencing the same stuff all the time. You'd think it change but no. I don't even know how it even happened. Is it because my dad divorced? Is it because my disorder? Because I switched schools? Is it because I won't simply move on with my life? I want to get things done and finished but no. It has to be tailor made and rail roaded to fit my so called "needs". I feel like I'm going no where. Like my life just hit a dead end and can't get out. I need discipline. I take a nap in the afternoon and wake up not  knowing where I am even . School has to wake me up so early! God I hate it. I hate that stupid school. I can barley go to sleep at the right time. I feel like I have been microwaved or something. I walk a lonely empty house at night not know what to do. Wishing and wanting for things. Looking for my sister to speak to. Spying on my mother. I want to hit milestones in my life more. Ughh...

 I want my life back in order.