I feel sad because I'm 21 now and I didn't live my life. I wanted to realy design this indie game but I was too distracted to. I made too many excuses to not do it.
I made too many excuses to not live life because of it. I wanted to get my plans done before the year 2014.
But college got in the way. I also have a dying fog with an oversized heart. And he need pills and constant care. He pees on everything because of the pills. If he doesn't get a walk. He starts barking his head off. And it gets really annoying and more interrupting. And now I can't focus.
I really don't want to give up on the things I love.
And now I have a fap addiction. I'm surrounded by smut because I have unlimited access to technology. But its not like I actually stimulate myself to it. I just sorta gawk at it.
I'm unemployed. And I have no job.
I hate many people around me. For being a bunch of degenerative perverts. I judge all of them for their cringey addictions
I feel like no one believes in me. Not even me.
I lost my ID even. A long with my entire wallet.
I just wanna throw rocks at tanks. Just to get out the stress.
I'm constantly stressed. Like there is a weight in the back of my legs and a push on my prefrontal lobe.
I need help!